Let Talk About Fear

Happy Monday. Will you just step out and do what you want to do.

Fear ~ manifest itself in many ways, doubts, mistakes, worrying, not starting or even just tirelessly waiting. 

So in the spirit of faith in action. Let fear die by abiding in the word. Let things that hinders you go. Let people that doubt you, or speak against the promises you hold dear go. 

Stop judging yourself by the standards of others. Surrender your heart to God and trust him intimately with your dreams and vision. 

When He says go, go with confidence that he will deliver everything you need into your hands, because it is only him that can set you on an uncomfortable journey and you know what! You can do hard things!

Set yourself free and lean into the season you have been placed in to experience the radical love and grace of The One who has called you to be triumph. 

Fear should not have a foothold in your life, the only fear that drives you should be in reverence towards the mighty power of God because your heart is secure in Him.

Hold on to this whenever you feel the weight of fear...."The Lord Almighty is the one you are to regard as holy, he is the one you are to fear..." Isaiah 8:13

With love, grace and faith in action. 

I write from a place of love

Beautiful Beloved BelievedIn

Trust

Trust God with where He is leading you. 
Trust God with the journey. 
Trust God and stop looking back. 
Trust God with how far you have come. 
Trust that He will light your way through the wilderness.
Trust that His love will never fail you.
Trust that He is with you every step of the way.
And above all, Love with all your heart.

I write from a place of love.

Beautiful Beloved Believedin

Random Musings

This is an impromptu post and the picture above is suppose to represent 'spiritual balance'. I feel so calm and light as I pour out a little bit of the words that is floating within me right now.

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As I surrendered to the magic that is Sunday in church this afternoon, I experienced a little miracle. But before I blurt it out, I would like to say this first 'Church is everyday, but Sundays are just special" and the choir said Amen. Mind blowing  or what scripture right there and maybe that is all someone out there needs to know right now.
Don't wait for Sundays to have a conversation with God or seek re-alignment with your spirituality if you feel messed up or down. Get down on your knees on the floor, throw a hissy fit and get down with it, because God can hear you loud and clear, and you don't need the perfect place or setting but right where you are now!!

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I started practising yoga for balance and fitness, one thing I struggled with was standing on my toe and to take my practise further, it was necessary to close your eye in order to feel the balance, re-align your body and focus your intention. Naturally I struggled, eyes closed, on my toes, swaying from side to side, forward backward, it was a mess, but I kept trying.

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You will never catch me with my eyes wandering, ain't got eye for anyone but you *inserts music* I love closing my eyes in worship, anywhere, anytime and I don't mind because I feel so much closer to God when I shut everything down,  which also includes bare feet's (sorry I am one of those people)  So as always, with arching feet, shoes discarded, I was so lost in my world that I didn't realise I was standing perfectly on my toes, glued to the spot for several moments. *screams like a banshee* I only  realised when I open my eyes and there I was, not stumbling or  falling, but balanced.

I look around as if to say to the next person, "did you see that", I did it, but no approval. Because, right there, I found my practise, *inhale, exhale* in that moment at church in the middle of service, I mastered my weakness, no more stumbling or falling, finding my practise with my intention on nothing but God *awesome feeling ever*  Before my inner goddess started dancing to this revelation,  I felt the holy spirit minster to my soul.

No matter how long it takes, you will eventually get there. Practise, practise, keep going is all it takes, you have been so focused on the end result, but not the patience that's needed in the process.

It so clear how this translates to many areas of my life and I am so incredible happy because it has been an amazing week and it can only get better. The holy spirit draws so much energy to my walk and enables me to function at a level beyond my comprehension that I am left gasping at the strength I have been able to display. I have stopped looking at my self with unbelief, but admiration and confidence that He is with me.

I write from a place of love.

Beautiful Beloved BelievedIn

Welcome Home

The message is simple. We don't build high walls or towers, neither do we put gates at the end of the road, rather we usher you in as you come. Come as you are! 

- Welcome  

'We care about the people that we welcome into our heart and around us.  We stay wide open and care more about the people that walk in and strive to make sure that they know about the gospel of grace. We represent an army of believers that do not judge or condemn, instead we embrace and love with the same passion Christ did for us."

- Keke

Dear you, 

We show love, give love and enable conversations that welcome others into the atmosphere. No gimmicks or attempts to throw about doctrines, theology or laws, but the simple message 'Welcome Home' with love, we have been expecting you.

Why? Because the rooms in this house are yours to explore, filled with many treasures and jewels. Listen, there is room for peace when you have unrest, love when you are down, grace when you are in doubt about everything you have done, the places you have been because you are accepted and welcomed to explore the many rooms in this house. We pray you find joy, seasons of continuous happiness, prosperity, wisdom and above all discover the love of 'The Master' Himself.

You are loved more than we could ever tell you or show you, but only He could reveal the truth to you and you do not have to pay him anything , but rest in Him, let Him transform your heart, renew and refresh your soul with living water.

Find comfort in His Word, they open doors, windows, unclog air ventilation and burst open pipelines and everything you need to stay planted in this house.

Know that you are not entirely lost and neither have you stumbled so far beyond recovery. But then,  if you do not know the Father, that is also okay, because your Father sees you right where you are! Luke 15:21 (But while he was still a long way off (returning home) his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.) 

"Welcome Home"

I write from a place of love.

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The Beloved

Morning after the day before, and the day before the day before and the sunset before the day before the day that was yesterday. In modern English, I am trying to say it has be an amazing end to the week, two and half days of phenomenal, praise, worship, service and out pour of divine power, release and continuous encounter with the voice of God at Hillsong Conference Europe 2015.  He roared like a mighty wind, shattering holds and dominions that have tied down his people for so long.

God spoke and we were listening in awe, renewed and stunned by the greatness we were experiencing in His majestic presence.  As I  entered, I prayed that Lord, I want to know You more,  just take me deeper than I already am and it was so.  More than ever, I accept that I am a vessel in this world, ready to be filled up with the greatness of God as He enables for His almighty glory and as He is, so are we in this world, (1 John 4:17) a scripture that I have over-looked so many times.

Do you know who Jesus is? Because to grasps the meaning of that scripture, we have to really know who He is.

Love, did you know that you are worth Jesus to God, and until you know Jesus, like really know Him, you might never really get this statement or what it means to be told “You are worth Jesus”…..God bless Simon Gibbs for this message in church last week Sunday. It is amazing how God is working, I mean the Holy Spirit is moving and linking every single message together.

My Jesus died on the cross for me, wounded, bruised and nailed on that cross for me, sweating blood, crying and taking it all for me. The same Jesus seated on the right hand side of God, Lion of the tribe of Judah, the almighty Alpha and Omega, beginner and finisher, bearing the multitude of sin that holds me back. The One, bringer of grace and truth that I seek, transforming lives with His love and this Jesus loves me.
The One that bought me with his body, the new High Priest who stands before the Father all day long on my behalf. Jesus bridged the gap between man and God, standing in line, pulling humanity back to its place with God.

Wait!! Did you know that we all belong to God and yet he still paid to for us to be founded in His love again! Because of Him, I can approach God with my all, no need for sacrifices and offering of grains or shedding of animal blood, Christ paid it all. Instead, I converse with my Father with a heart that has received the gift of the spirit of God, taken in by the counsel of the Holy Spirit, activating the victories that has been won by the ultimate sacrifice on the cross.

I pray you understand. I pray you confess it. I (insert name) am Worth Jesus "The Beloved", the beloved, beloved Son of God who died for me.

I write from a place of love.


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Sacrificial Love

Love that will shape the world.
The love I dream of when I think of life, people and family.
Love that transcends selfishness, greed, pride and arrogance.
Love that influences, empower, uplift and flourish a nation of broken hearted people.
Be sacrificial in the love you give, as your heavenly Father fills us with an overflow. Let it flow as well to the people you encounter in the world. Your attitude of love may be the conception that will transform another life, enabling them to seek the light that flows within you.
The way habits can be copied and imitated, your compassion, kindness and love can be copied. God is love and His love is around. You are love because the Father lives in you as well. He gives freely of everything if only you ask from Him.
Be beautiful. Stay Beloved. You are Believedin.
Faith. Love. Love. Peace.

I write from a place of love.

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What I Know For Sure

 You are chosen with a purpose, gifted and talented with everything you need within your grasp. You are closer than you know with each passing day, if only you stop seeing yourself through the lens of your limiting beliefs, but fan into flames the gifts in you, for his glory.

"All Scripture are God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God, may be thoroughly equipped for every good work."

2 Timothy 3: 16-17

I am not where I use to be and I thank God for the encouragement to be able to spend more time with his Word. Scriptures are making more sense as I am able to connect it with my everyday life and hearing God speak is not a coincidence. I remember sitting listening to sermons, often thinking wow, how did S/he do that, serving mind-blowing messages like that. I asked myself what is the secret? I once desired ministry school (it can still happen) because I love God but could not get into the Word. Hello!!! KJV is so ancient and I never thought I could ever get. It was agonizing wanting everything to make sense, waiting for Sunday sermons with that quivering fear that I might never get it on my own like that and be bold. 

I WANT. I WANT. I WANT. We were not created to shrink but live flourishing lives with ambition to unearth who we are.

See, it is not by might nor by power but by my spirit says the Lord (Zechariah 4: 6). Insatiable hunger to know more has changed my life, meaning I now look at what is in my hand rather than at what I want, knowing my hand represents the gifts, talents and abilities that dwells within me. I am convinced that God will not ask us to do something if he hasn't already figured that you are able. We might not know it, but he does. 

So I write in my journal. Encourage myself. Pray. Kneel. Read the Word he has placed in my hand, seeking, letting him speak into my soul, unraveling mystery that is I. I may not totally know or foresee everything but with each breathe, I see the possibilities and meditate on the words I hear. 

Six spiritual tool belts I picked up at team night this week. Encouragement. Faithfulness. Honor. Generosity. Excellence. Thankfulness. 

You are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God's special possession, that you may declare the power of him who called you out of darkness into the wonderful light (1 Peter 2: 9). I believe God is calling us as a generation to speak, encourage and excel in the present. More than ever, there are extraordinary fiery women preaching and dropping the Word of God through, books, seminars, conferences etc. But huh? Don't even think about it!. We can all make a difference together and serve one another. A new world order has arrived in the form of social media, with platforms like Instagram, Facebook and Twitter and it is addictive as we follow, imitate and prey into the lives of the other half.  But simple words of encouragement in 140 characters or an upload can save a life or awaken a dead spirit, breathing new life into a day that started on the wrong foot.

What gift, talent or ability do you see within yourself? Do you own it? Listen to Paul's writing in 1 Timothy 3- 11-14 "Command and teach this things. Do not let anyone look down on you because you are young...until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scriptures, to preaching & teaching. Do not neglect your gift...." I believe this is very much relevant and applicable to us as we live in Christ. I know that it can be hard and I also speak for me on this but we are able because of a God who loves us, as well as holding his hands to us all-day & nightlong. 

Prayer: Lord I do not want to be baffled by your Word or sick with that feeling that I am not good enough but confident that I will be ambitious with my gifts for your glory. 

I know for sure that I am chosen with a purpose, swept up in your love and guided by your spirit. 

I know for sure that all I want is you, you, you all day long.

I know for sure that every breathe I take is because of you.

Amen

I write from a place of love.

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You are the greatest story of His undying love

Love. Grace. Heart. Soul. Humility. Patience. Gratitude…..It all comes from God, He sees you and He wants to hold onto you forever. 

I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me, for my Father has given them to me, and he is more powerful than anyone else. No one can snatch them from the Father’s hand. The Father and I are one.” (‭John‬ ‭10‬:‭28-30‬ NLT)

If no one can snatch you from the Father's hand, no one. So what happens when your life is far from God and His presence. Who moved?

You can place a child on a high stool and no matter how high & beautiful the experience with stunning views and instructions to stay strapped in. They will always have that uncontrollable free will and choice, waiting to be exercised.

Jump off, stay on, climb down. Whatever? Wanderlust attitude. 

Yet again, who moved?

"After he has gathered his own flock, he walks ahead of them, and they follow him because they know his voice. They won’t follow a stranger; they will run from him because they don’t know his voice.” (‭John‬ ‭10‬:‭4-5‬ NLT)

Peace?

When you follow God with your heart, life makes sense, plenty bountiful things will come to you, the universe will see your light, His voice will guide you, it will go ahead of you. But when you walk away, the voice that leads you will be towards a path of destruction. At first, you may think, I have a good job, money is not a problem, I can date anyone that comes along, my body belongs to me so I can use it for my pleasure. Your mouth will be a representation of your own wisdom, it will birth foolishness, disgrace and self glory. Eventually you will run out, trust me it always does and it might look like despair, disaster, ruins, one problem after the other and Viola! you will remember God. You will start praying, hoping, half wishing for breakthrough, while still blaming Him for your misfortunes.

Why me? Why do bad things happen to me? If God existed, why did he let me experience this?

But you forget, that even believers go through hardship but what keeps us from gloom is the assurance of our faith and trust in God's ability to provide  and lift the veil because He has overcome already what we are going through.

Faith?

We are required to be patient, humble, trustful and loyal to God. Answers to our prayers will come but it isn't always what we wanted but we thank God because that either enough proof to go ahead or wait or stop interfering in His plans for us. In faith, we understand and keep it moving against the tides because we follow His voice. Look it can be hard not knowing, but persistence, humility, desire to move with grace and obedience will sort you out as soon as you get it.

But You, Yes You. When God's answer comes through, you don't trust it, because you never needed permission or confirmation. That prayer was to appease your conscience, to make you seem flawless in the eyes of the world because whatever you own, it is yours and yours alone. Your hard work saw you through, and while everyone else were on their backside, kneels doing whatever, you gave life your all and thank goodness you stopped looking like the struggle you went through. Then the problems starts, you make it a point to remind God that if He really is what He claims to be, then He should sort you out. After all, you have been good, giving to the poor and shown kindness here and there. Oh and the enemy has nothing on you.

I use to be you. I use to think like that. I was a free spirited person guided by my morals and conscience, with no relationship with the Kingdom of God. Then I found grace which changed everything I knew about myself. I even went through a period I backslided and still not perfect, but striving to stay in God's path, in his hands by choice. In my saved days of waywardness it was 50/50 between wanting to experience the world, have fun and doing God on the side whatever that meant.

It looked like this, I fasted every month, church every Sunday lost in surrender, sex midweek with my boyfriend, preacher girl when I was out, bible study in the morning, repentance every now and then when I caught a glimpse of myself. I even felt justified because I have the gift of dreaming since I was a child, my mama and even I was always sacred whenever I wandered into her room in the morning.  I have dreams about people's lives, clear visions and would already witness events happen. Many are reoccurring and it has died down a bit now, but in my adulthood, I have relied more on prayer, worship, praise sessions and doing life with amazing people that we can both roar and remain unshaken in the Word.

Humility. Grace. Love. Friendship. Meditation. Prayer

How do you feel when you see those words? Is here a stirring in your heart?

Where has your focus been? Scriptures, worship, praises, your own strength, your own choice or perhaps a division between you and God because you are finding it hard to reconcile His love for you with where you are.

Love?

"I will give you rest"

Do you know that you are part of His greatest story and He is calling you to be found in His love. My heart screams, dive, dive dive!!!! but you will call me crazy, so I challenge you to lean in. I promise you will be so captivated by the glimpse, it will just make sense to lose all composure and grace will fill you, love will become your cornerstone, peace will always be a gentle reminder of the covenant He made with you. The noise in the world around you will fade away, you will be more grateful for the whispers of the wind, the presence of the wave, fresh water will fill your lungs with joy.

Find salvation, I write for you from a place of love.

Beautiful Beloved BelievedIn

Re-Post - Appreciation

I never want to forget this…. I will always re-post and be humbled by the opportunities and guidance I have received along the way.

A prayer to the universe and all things created for our good. Lighting up the world with God's love and mercy as I offer this prayer to that which is higher than me. Ancient of days, thank you for filling me up with love, sustaining me with grace, strength and hope in you. 

Balancing my emotions whenever it stirs in conflict with sin and ugliness of this earth. It is not taken for granted as always that you know best, for you formed me in my mothers womb, called me by name before I was conceived and filled my soul with love and longing for you constantly as I grew up. I may have strayed, but your grace pulled me back into the realms of your kingdom, spirit filled and soul inspired by the path you have laid down for me to follow. 

You nudge me with encouragement and empower my heart to go on, even with the heartbreak, hurt, rejection and pain it's been through. Times I have cried out in anguish and pain, fearing it will never stop, I know you watched me, because I came through it and the heart I thought was broken  is still breathing, ready to love and conquer again and again. Thank you Abba, I could never ever imagine doing life without you again, you are my rescuer, sustainer, joy and shining light. 

Your love over flows within my heart and fills my spirit and I have watched it transform and lighten up my countenance to the people I do life with everyday.  This soul is forever in debt to the freedom you have given it, and when the mighty storms of life bruises and passes through, I stand confidently still in you. When the shadows of darkness hovers, I call out to the beginning of existence "Let there be Light" and when the ground upon which I stand hurts, I find strength in looking to the skies above and know I am not alone.

On a  journey of self-discovery, speaking out loud, overcoming every limiting beliefs that have held me down for so long without air. Here is to another month of digging deeper, finding balance and streaming ahead with plans for the future.

You lead, I follow. Ready like never before...

xxxx

Inner Quiet Confidence

Thank you Lord for been faithful to me and pouring your blessings upon my life.

This soul does not take it for granted that you know best in all circumstances and situation life throws at me. Thank you for this quiet inner confidence that am feeling lately, knowing that I do not have to rush through life, instead 'Your Grace' prompting me to experience life step by step, keeping me planted in each season for different purposes.

It been quite liberating to stay calm, trusting in the understanding that You have showed me that I am not there yet. I laugh at the exchanges we have had in the past few weeks over what I want and need from You this year and You been awesome, respond with Your answer!!!!! (God is never late).

Sometimes, it hits me in the wrong places, I am left even more confused than ever and I strut around trying to figure out what You mean and think I can manipulate your decision by offering compromise or desperate promises in return, but You don't run Your Kingdom like that................

Instead You give this confidence *Selah* to calm the storm in my heart and crush the conflicts in my head. I am not there yet, but I am where I need to be right in this moment with You.

As always, Keke is Beautiful, Beloved, Believed In because of the Grace that never fails.

Today is Day 2

I have been crying a lot lately, it been weeks of this agonising pain in my heart, filled with dashed hopes and aspiration. It hasn’t been one thing, which I can confidently point to as the reason for this emotional roller coaster. My family life, personal relationship, career and commitment to life are what I am struggling with at the moment. I have spoken to God, but my heart is still weary as ever, I long for the days when I would pray and pray till I was parched, nowadays it is just a murmur, delayed whispers, incoherent thoughts and I even fall asleep speaking to God or I would forget what I am praying about. 

Although I made the conscious decision to start bible reading a few weeks ago, it has been good; but find it hard to focus in the evenings with my family around and often get disturbed in the room, fall asleep if I tried to do it before bed. So leaving the house early in the morning to catch the empty train and read the word on my way to work has worked out better than I could ever imagine. Arriving at work 20 minutes also helps as I multi-task between coffee drinking session, tucking into a bite of cinnamon swirl pastry and reading  has been refreshing.

However, I am truly struggling with negative emotions and becoming easily affected by stuff that are happening around me especially with family life. One thing I know is that, confusion does not come from God and I have made a new commitment to resolve this once and for all.

So……….here it is; Pray. Yes I said pray. But this is a special prayer; actually it is a project I came across as I flicker on my IG page. It is called the #PrayerProject, a challenge that last for 30 days praying not for you but others, it could be a partner/spouse, a friend, a specific individual or stranger.

I am doing mine for my family, after the nightmare we have endured and the revelation we had this weekend. This is not a surprise to me at all, because for the first time in my life, I started praying for my mum last week at church, cause I strongly believe she needs it as her strength is what I have known in my family before I came to rely on Christ this much. But Ma is failing and I see her looking in all the wrong places for intercession from God, if only she could hear from God personally and rest in Him.

All of a sudden in the mist of my heartache, God is making so much sense. Pray for my mum and by extension of faith to all my siblings as well. It makes crazy sense to me as I write, because a fruit is only as good as the seed/tree it falls from. If you know anything off what we have been through, then you will see that I need this challenge like I need air to exist.

So for the next 30 days, journal prayer in writing to God, placing everything in Him as my pain and anguish is rooted in the craziness of my family life.  I have been holding on to a lot of things and I have come to realise that in order to let go of  everything, you know my childhoods sense of abandonment, rejection, hurt, disappointment, unaccomplished, un-cherished feeling and resentment towards my family . I have to do this, we need healing and I know God will listen